Living Out Loud


Nyrae Dawn, Christina Lee


CreateSpace Publishing

Release Date

September 7th, 2017



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Ben Emerson has lived by his minister father’s rules most of his life. Born into an ultra-conservative church community, he’s finally brave enough to break free and move to San Francisco. Distancing himself certainly helps create a new mindset, but living as an openly gay man takes some getting used to. When he reaches out to Xavier, a childhood friend who lives in the city, Ben isn’t sure how he’ll respond given their thorny history. Ben hopes the familiar connection will help him right some wrongs as well as provide the solace he’s been craving.

Xavier Ramos is who he is, and he doesn’t give a damn what anyone thinks. Whether it’s eyeliner, nail polish, tattoos or his love of hooking up, he uses his body as a form of self-expression but doesn’t let anyone get too close. When Ben reenters his life, Xavier helps him experience the city and feel comfortable in his own skin. Seeing the world through Ben’s eyes, he begins to wonder if he’s also not living as freely as he thought.

When Xavier challenges Ben’s beliefs about sex, it becomes explosive—for both of them. Xavier breaks apart Ben’s sheltered world and shows him what it’s like to live out loud. The more time they spend together, the more Xavier begins to long for Ben in a different way—one that both surprises and scares him. But real life doesn’t fade into the background, so when Ben’s past comes knocking, old habits are hard to break. Testing the foundation of their deepening connection will take a trust that will either bind them…or tear them apart.

**Riley Hart writing as Nyrae Dawn

**Ben is from PAINT THE STARS and Xavier is from A HUNDRED THOUSAND WORDS, but LIVING OUT LOUD can be read as a complete standalone.



Book Cover

  • Headless torsos and/or exposed abs – how original


  • Memorable after I put it down for a few hours


  • Reading Ben's journey of freedom and learning to be himself as it unfolds
  • Xavier's quirkiness
  • PENNY!
  • The inclusion of family backstories
  • The mild kink

Character Depth

  • Neck deep

Mood Upon Completion

  • Happy


  • Very few/no typos

Sex Scenes

  • Decently hot and/or sweet


  • The 'big misunderstanding near the end' trope is getting extremely old

Emotional Depth

  • Moderately emotional

Content Warnings

  • Abuse
  • Light kink
  • Mild drug use (marijuana)

Penny is so far the second-coolest lady I’ve read about in m/m (Paul’s grandma & her foul-mouthed parrot in Tell Me It’s Real are still #1).

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